AMerrick

A part of me wishes we could just move away from this forsaken town.  My relationship with my mom hasn’t been the greatest the last few weeks.  My husband and I were going to go out on the boat a couple weeks ago and told my brother ahead of time and caused a big fued and ever since then my mom hasn’t said too much to me.  I just feel like climbing into a hole and never coming out.  I haven’t spent much time at my moms since then, which is part of why I haven’t been on here much.  Its tearing me apart knowing the one parent I have left has been distant.  It was good solid week before she talked to me again and I did nothing wrong.  I just can’t wait until she gets rid of that damn boat so I don’t have to deal with it ever again.  The day it happened I told my husband why dont we just move away, and he said no because I would regret it in the long run.  Sometimes I think a little distance would do us some good, but he doesn’t think so.  Sometimes I feel like my life is falling apart and I can’t seem to do anything about it.  I’m hoping things get better soon.  The stress of it all isn’t helping me very well.  Its left me with stomach problems over the past few weeks.  And I know Im not pregnant, lol took a test already.  So Im guessing its from all of the stress caused by the feuding the past few weeks.  I just wish everyone could just get along again like we used to.  It makes me sad seeing how badly weve fallen apart.

Lately, I haven’t had much time to do much of anything.  Between work, and getting my life in order I just havent’ had time.  That includes going to the gym.  My plan is to get back into the groove this week, or so I hope.  Although I have been away from the gym, I have been active, been doing some really deep cleaning at home.  Sweating my freaken ass of thats for sure.  I have missed talking to everyone.  i havent been online much at all, over the past couple weeks.  I log on the check messages and then I log off.  Todays the first time Ive logged onto buddy slim in about a week.  Ive fallen off of the bandwagon pretty bad.  I haven’t had time so Ive just grab whatevers available to me.  Which probably hasn’t been good.  I haven checked the scale lately.  I could be surprised either way.  But Im hoping to get things worked out so that I can juggle life alot better than I do.  It would be alot easier if we could get a house, we need one really bad.  We live at my inlaws although its nice, we need something of our own.  Im hoping for something to come along in the spring of the year.  Although I havn’t had time to workout my body is changing.  I think Im finally getting my monthly period back, like thats something to be happy about.  But I am, because its hard to try to get pregnant one Im ready, if I dont get my period.  My body has been so messed up for so long.  But its getting better.  Although I haven’t been working out I am still getting compliments.  Enough of this blabbing.  Hope you all are doing better than I am.  Take care and hope to hear from you soon.